Fact #1: Sex/Alcohol/Drugs

The title seems bad but just hear me out. There's this fact about me you won't expect especially if you know me. I decided to start off with this fact because I didn't want to blow your minds instantaneously or make you wish you knew me. Because honestly, I ain't someone to admire.

Anyway Fact #1: My Perpetual and Strange Fear of Sex, Alcohol, and Drugs Even Though I Joke About Them All The Time With My Friends and On This Blog

- So sometimes I'll crack sexual innuendos or make references to drugs and/or alcohol and it'll be hilarious. But to be perfectly and totally honest with you, those things scare me to death. It's not even funny. Like I'll joke about them but in all reality, I'm scared for the day I lose my virginity. Hell i haven't even been kissed yet. I'm scared of doing shots and going to parties and getting into that shit because it means that everyone I know is becoming an adult. It means my childhood is over and I need to figure my shit out and that shits scares me so bad. 
      But what I hate the most is the fact that all my friends have this expectation that I'm going to remain pure and virtuous forever because that's the version of me they like best. It sucks that people want to mold me and make me fit like them when in all reality, I'm never going to be like them. I had a mini meltdown today but that's a story I'll tell some other time. 
      Drugs are seriously a bad thing because of the damage they can do. I'm not against pot, I mean go for it bud. But the hardcore drugs like coke, heroin, crack, LDS, etc. Stay away from that shit. Your life will be a disaster after those drugs, if you're lucky enough to be alive after. And alcohol, don't even get me started on that shit. My dad's mom died from liver failure when he was still a kid. I didn't even get to know her, due to her addiction to alcohol. 
     So, to sum up: I joke about this shit but I'm really terrified as hell from it. Don't do hardcore shit; it's not hardcore when you're in rehab...or dead. Stay safe guys.

Next week I'll have a lighter topic I promise!!
xx
LoLo