So I'm home sick today as I was yesterday and desperately lonesome. You guys can leave if you want. This is just going to be a pointless, whiny rant about how it sucks I can't get a guy to save my life and how unfair it is that other girls do and blah de blah de blah. So for that I apologize. I'm just in a bad general mood. But it's like, when you're single and on your own for such a long time, you tend to start to resent couples.
I've accepted the fact that in high school: I probably won't have dates to any of the dances, I probably won't have another boyfriend, and I'll be glad as hell to get out of here. It just flat out sucks ya know? I have this one friend who can literally get any guy she wants. She has guys on their knees wanting to date her because she is physically gorgeous and is such a fun, loud personality. But she literally cheats on every one of them and just doesn't give a shit and it's like how the fuck can you do that? How can she just not feel any guilt or sadness when breaking these guys hearts? But then I forget that their pretty disposable to her, she can replace them. She's so used to guys attention that normally if one of the guys pay attention to me, she flips shit and pouts.
For instance, I attended her birthday party in like seventh grade. She had the hugest crush that week, on an eighth grader named Jacob. She invited him to the party too. So I only knew like three people there and I was chilling with my other best friend who was invited. Well, Jacob turned out to be really cute but I knew he was all Alex's. And yet, he flirted with me so much. We were just hanging out in the pool and he like grabbed me around the waist and was picking me up. Might I mention he attempted to take off my swimsuit top. Anyway, we were joking around with my friend Katie around because he was making me uncomfortable when Alex suggests a little too excitedly, a chicken fight. We didn't object. I got on Katie's and Alex got on Jacob's shoulders and we start the fight. Well, he was a skinny kid like extremely and Alex is about my weight and is curvy. He ended up dropping her first because he couldn't keep her up. She got upset and started crying in the corner. I tried to calm her down but she screamed at me saying I stole him from her and how I was taking up all the attention. I was so confused but like I said, if she doesn't have the guy's or anyone else's attention, she flips.
Long story short, they ended up making out in the hot tub and I ended up stuffing my face with food with my friend Katie. But still it's like she flips out when the guy she wants doesn't pay attention to her. Thus, why I try not to go into social events involving guys with her because naturally she has to be the center of attention. And I am but a humble, meek, shy, insecure girl with no knowledge on how to talk to boys so why should they talk to me anyway?
Ugh, I gotta go do homework before I fail my life.
xx
LoLo
Who wouldn't want to date this?
