Hell yeah! I drive places now!. Except for the most part, that concludes to my new job (at Cafe Zupas) and school and volunteering. I have to update you on a few things:
1. I asked my former Bae #2 to homecoming. Not only did he blow me off when I tried to talk to him, but he also rudely said he isn't even going to homecoming. Dick face.
2. I saw Straight Outta Compton and HOLY SHIT THAT MOVIE WAS SO GOOD.
3. I have a kick ass beautiful dress for homecoming and I'm so stoked.
4. I don't have any other announcements because my love life is nonexistent and I'm living day by day.
Well, I updated you guys however, I am considering deleting my blog. So yeah.
Peace.
Lauren
Friday, September 11, 2015
Monday, June 22, 2015
Update: Summer 2015
AYYYOOOOO.
Aight, for the few people who actually read my blog, I know I'm going to disappoint you when I tell you that literally nothing interesting has happened so far. Except me going on vacation for a week and flirting with an 18 year old. But except that, nothing else happened.
I'm feeling alright right now, my anxiety isn't all crazy. I have had three attacks in the past week though and they kind of sucked. But whatever. They suck but they're my burden I have to deal with for a bit.
I figured this is the summer of transition for me. I want to change. I want to be more social, have more fun, be less anxious. Because honestly, I want this year to kick ass compared to sophomore and freshman year. I want to go out and do stuff. Just find adventures anywhere. I'm tired of being afraid and I'm tired of being too mature. I want to be a teenager for once and not flip shit.
Thus, the summer of transition.
Anyway, I'm hungry and I have nothing else to talk about so...PEACE.
Gonna go get cereal,
xx
Lauren
Aight, for the few people who actually read my blog, I know I'm going to disappoint you when I tell you that literally nothing interesting has happened so far. Except me going on vacation for a week and flirting with an 18 year old. But except that, nothing else happened.
I'm feeling alright right now, my anxiety isn't all crazy. I have had three attacks in the past week though and they kind of sucked. But whatever. They suck but they're my burden I have to deal with for a bit.
I figured this is the summer of transition for me. I want to change. I want to be more social, have more fun, be less anxious. Because honestly, I want this year to kick ass compared to sophomore and freshman year. I want to go out and do stuff. Just find adventures anywhere. I'm tired of being afraid and I'm tired of being too mature. I want to be a teenager for once and not flip shit.
Thus, the summer of transition.
Anyway, I'm hungry and I have nothing else to talk about so...PEACE.
Gonna go get cereal,
xx
Lauren
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
a post about shit
have you ever just been in the mood to watch cheesy 80's and 90's teen angst/romance movies that take place in a stereotypical high school and ends with the girl getting the guy and the nerdy best friend ending up happy? yeah I am. i have been for a little bit. maybe a while. possibly my whole life. but what does that matter? you might notice that this post is in lower case and it might bug the shit out of you. sorry but i give no craps about being proper today.
anyway, the fact is my sophomore year is almost done and that means i will be halfway done with high school. terrifying thought right? im so scared just because i know the next two years are gonna be hell.
moving along, i have a track banquet tonight and all my freshman friends are gonna be there and so will be my freshman Bae who i call Bae #2. you need to see him 'cause only then will you understand. he's even taller than me so it's kinda a big deal to me. i'm also wearing a skirt and tank top which is a huge deal for me because seeing how insecure i am, this is a bold bold move because it fits my curves and figure.
i dyed my hair btw. it is about at black as anything colored black. although i have to recolor it next week because it's already wearing off. so i had this weird nostalgic thought this weekend. idk why but i was thinking about this kid that switched schools a couple of months ago. it hit me how the last time I saw him would probably be the last time i saw him ever. and it kinda upset me even though we've only had like 2 conversations ever. i don't know. call me crazy but i'm kind of attached to my classmates even if they're assholes and complete dipshits. because they're home, they're comfortable. i've known them since i was 12. the fact that when i turn 18 that all changes it kind of scares me. the kid that moved, kids called him an ass, douche, etc. basically all the names under the sea. he is actually a very intelligent, kind person; people just have a hard time looking past his personality. i kind of miss him, ill admit, just purely because like i said, classmates are comfortable. *that doesn't mean you should go sit on them or anything inappropriate, i know there's at least one pervert out there*
would things be different if he stayed? probably not. we didn't have classes together this year. he's not in my friend group. but it just terrifies me that this is going to happen in two years. im going to part ways with my classmates and go build another life for myself. meet new people. fall in love. drink bad coffee. while it sounds extremely cool, i don't know if i'm prepared to give up high school yet. luckily i have two years.
well enough philosophical talk for today, i'm going to go pretend to work on a project and listen to my dumbass classmates complain about some shit.
peace out.
xx
Lauren
anyway, the fact is my sophomore year is almost done and that means i will be halfway done with high school. terrifying thought right? im so scared just because i know the next two years are gonna be hell.
moving along, i have a track banquet tonight and all my freshman friends are gonna be there and so will be my freshman Bae who i call Bae #2. you need to see him 'cause only then will you understand. he's even taller than me so it's kinda a big deal to me. i'm also wearing a skirt and tank top which is a huge deal for me because seeing how insecure i am, this is a bold bold move because it fits my curves and figure.
i dyed my hair btw. it is about at black as anything colored black. although i have to recolor it next week because it's already wearing off. so i had this weird nostalgic thought this weekend. idk why but i was thinking about this kid that switched schools a couple of months ago. it hit me how the last time I saw him would probably be the last time i saw him ever. and it kinda upset me even though we've only had like 2 conversations ever. i don't know. call me crazy but i'm kind of attached to my classmates even if they're assholes and complete dipshits. because they're home, they're comfortable. i've known them since i was 12. the fact that when i turn 18 that all changes it kind of scares me. the kid that moved, kids called him an ass, douche, etc. basically all the names under the sea. he is actually a very intelligent, kind person; people just have a hard time looking past his personality. i kind of miss him, ill admit, just purely because like i said, classmates are comfortable. *that doesn't mean you should go sit on them or anything inappropriate, i know there's at least one pervert out there*
would things be different if he stayed? probably not. we didn't have classes together this year. he's not in my friend group. but it just terrifies me that this is going to happen in two years. im going to part ways with my classmates and go build another life for myself. meet new people. fall in love. drink bad coffee. while it sounds extremely cool, i don't know if i'm prepared to give up high school yet. luckily i have two years.
well enough philosophical talk for today, i'm going to go pretend to work on a project and listen to my dumbass classmates complain about some shit.
peace out.
xx
Lauren
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Procrastination Station
Hey peoples. So I've been increasingly busy seeing as I have joined Track and Field, even though I only do the field part of it xD. I throw. And frankly right now I suck at it. I have come back on to dutifully update you to the parts of my life that you probably genuinely don't give a shit about. But hey that's what viewers are for right?
#1: New Aussie Student: OMFG GUYS HE IS FROM AUSTRALIA AND HAS AN ACCENT AND EVERYTHING. YOU ALL KNOW I HAVE A WEAKNESS FOR ACCENTS. IF NOT, NOW YOU DO. He's super cute guys like he's a solid 8.5. His name's Jayden and he has slightly curly brown hair and brown eyes and omfg he gives me the feels. I smiled at him and he smiled back so that's a good sign.
#2: I Sent A Valentine...: and not just to anybody...I FUCKIN SENT IT TO MY CRUSH. Apparently, he was very bewildered and what not...Speaking of, moving to next update..
#3: I SPOKE TO GUAPO: FYI Guapo is my crush and I spoke to him. Granted, it was in Spanish and it was because we had to but still! And i couldn't look at him while I spoke so I looked at the desk he was at and he did the same thing when he spoke to me! IDK if that's a sign or no....but I'm still happy.
#4: Handsome guy friend: So I have a guy friend whom I may have a slight crush on right now...and it bugs me because it's like that makes it so much harder. But we have fun and he's adorkable, kinda like me only better looking xD...
#5: I am currently hungry. For reals tho, like I have to wait till 4 everyday for my practice to start and I'm super hungry but didn't want to do sprints so I stayed inside and "did homework". Ugh. OOOO
I forgot.
#6: I WENT TO WINTER FORMAL: I had a hell of a lot better time there than at Homecoming even though both times I didn't have a date. But whateves. I had a killer dress, a great group of friends and a great time.
So, I'm gonna go and probably get dressed for throwing just for lack of better things to do even though I have homework. ....
BYEEEEE
PS. THe pic is me being Hangry. Jk it's a pregnant Sphinx Cat xD
#1: New Aussie Student: OMFG GUYS HE IS FROM AUSTRALIA AND HAS AN ACCENT AND EVERYTHING. YOU ALL KNOW I HAVE A WEAKNESS FOR ACCENTS. IF NOT, NOW YOU DO. He's super cute guys like he's a solid 8.5. His name's Jayden and he has slightly curly brown hair and brown eyes and omfg he gives me the feels. I smiled at him and he smiled back so that's a good sign.
#2: I Sent A Valentine...: and not just to anybody...I FUCKIN SENT IT TO MY CRUSH. Apparently, he was very bewildered and what not...Speaking of, moving to next update..
#3: I SPOKE TO GUAPO: FYI Guapo is my crush and I spoke to him. Granted, it was in Spanish and it was because we had to but still! And i couldn't look at him while I spoke so I looked at the desk he was at and he did the same thing when he spoke to me! IDK if that's a sign or no....but I'm still happy.
#4: Handsome guy friend: So I have a guy friend whom I may have a slight crush on right now...and it bugs me because it's like that makes it so much harder. But we have fun and he's adorkable, kinda like me only better looking xD...
#5: I am currently hungry. For reals tho, like I have to wait till 4 everyday for my practice to start and I'm super hungry but didn't want to do sprints so I stayed inside and "did homework". Ugh. OOOO
I forgot.
#6: I WENT TO WINTER FORMAL: I had a hell of a lot better time there than at Homecoming even though both times I didn't have a date. But whateves. I had a killer dress, a great group of friends and a great time.
So, I'm gonna go and probably get dressed for throwing just for lack of better things to do even though I have homework. ....
BYEEEEE
PS. THe pic is me being Hangry. Jk it's a pregnant Sphinx Cat xD
Sunday, January 25, 2015
The Feels....
Guys, I have been severely stuck in the feels by my own damn mind. Goddamn, I've been emotional as shit all weekend because of this dream I had Thursday night. You might be thinking, oh no biggie just get over it. NO. YOU. DON'T. UNDERSTAND.
My dream was about Spanish boy and if we started dating and he held my hand and kissed me a lot and it felt so real that when my dad woke me up in the morning I started crying because I thought it actually happened. Ever since I've been emotionally out of whack. I literally stayed up until 4 in the morning last night and only had like two hours of sleep because I didn't want to dream and I wanted to watch Criminal Minds but that's a different story.
Guys, it felt so fucking real. Like at school on Friday, I couldn't even look at him because the feels were just to goddamn strong. I still need to do homework but am incapable of the action because my emotions are plaguing me and just taking up my time by creating daydreams that will never happen. Ugh, crushes suck. I feel as though I like him way too much for my own good.
Thus, why I am currently laying in my filthy, messed up, representation-of-my-life room listening to songs such as Hey There Delilah, Dreaming with a Broken Heart, and Half of My Heart while blogging and daydreaming with no real purpose to my day. It doesn't help that Valentine's Day is slowly creeping upon us and the fact that I'm going to buy a shit ton of chocolate the day after. Well, I'm gonna go back to doing absolutely nothing except daydream and break my heart slowly and painfully....PEACE!!
xx
LoLo
My dream was about Spanish boy and if we started dating and he held my hand and kissed me a lot and it felt so real that when my dad woke me up in the morning I started crying because I thought it actually happened. Ever since I've been emotionally out of whack. I literally stayed up until 4 in the morning last night and only had like two hours of sleep because I didn't want to dream and I wanted to watch Criminal Minds but that's a different story.
Guys, it felt so fucking real. Like at school on Friday, I couldn't even look at him because the feels were just to goddamn strong. I still need to do homework but am incapable of the action because my emotions are plaguing me and just taking up my time by creating daydreams that will never happen. Ugh, crushes suck. I feel as though I like him way too much for my own good.
Thus, why I am currently laying in my filthy, messed up, representation-of-my-life room listening to songs such as Hey There Delilah, Dreaming with a Broken Heart, and Half of My Heart while blogging and daydreaming with no real purpose to my day. It doesn't help that Valentine's Day is slowly creeping upon us and the fact that I'm going to buy a shit ton of chocolate the day after. Well, I'm gonna go back to doing absolutely nothing except daydream and break my heart slowly and painfully....PEACE!!
xx
LoLo
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Sick and Resentful
How is it remotely possible to become friends with attractive people and then end up falling in love with them? That's my question. Because I only have like five guy friends and frankly: 2 are gay, one has a girlfriend and is just a buddy anyway, and then the other two are family friends who have way better social lives than me even though they're super attractive. It sucks.
So I'm home sick today as I was yesterday and desperately lonesome. You guys can leave if you want. This is just going to be a pointless, whiny rant about how it sucks I can't get a guy to save my life and how unfair it is that other girls do and blah de blah de blah. So for that I apologize. I'm just in a bad general mood. But it's like, when you're single and on your own for such a long time, you tend to start to resent couples.
I've accepted the fact that in high school: I probably won't have dates to any of the dances, I probably won't have another boyfriend, and I'll be glad as hell to get out of here. It just flat out sucks ya know? I have this one friend who can literally get any guy she wants. She has guys on their knees wanting to date her because she is physically gorgeous and is such a fun, loud personality. But she literally cheats on every one of them and just doesn't give a shit and it's like how the fuck can you do that? How can she just not feel any guilt or sadness when breaking these guys hearts? But then I forget that their pretty disposable to her, she can replace them. She's so used to guys attention that normally if one of the guys pay attention to me, she flips shit and pouts.
For instance, I attended her birthday party in like seventh grade. She had the hugest crush that week, on an eighth grader named Jacob. She invited him to the party too. So I only knew like three people there and I was chilling with my other best friend who was invited. Well, Jacob turned out to be really cute but I knew he was all Alex's. And yet, he flirted with me so much. We were just hanging out in the pool and he like grabbed me around the waist and was picking me up. Might I mention he attempted to take off my swimsuit top. Anyway, we were joking around with my friend Katie around because he was making me uncomfortable when Alex suggests a little too excitedly, a chicken fight. We didn't object. I got on Katie's and Alex got on Jacob's shoulders and we start the fight. Well, he was a skinny kid like extremely and Alex is about my weight and is curvy. He ended up dropping her first because he couldn't keep her up. She got upset and started crying in the corner. I tried to calm her down but she screamed at me saying I stole him from her and how I was taking up all the attention. I was so confused but like I said, if she doesn't have the guy's or anyone else's attention, she flips.
Long story short, they ended up making out in the hot tub and I ended up stuffing my face with food with my friend Katie. But still it's like she flips out when the guy she wants doesn't pay attention to her. Thus, why I try not to go into social events involving guys with her because naturally she has to be the center of attention. And I am but a humble, meek, shy, insecure girl with no knowledge on how to talk to boys so why should they talk to me anyway?
Ugh, I gotta go do homework before I fail my life.
xx
LoLo
Who wouldn't want to date this?
So I'm home sick today as I was yesterday and desperately lonesome. You guys can leave if you want. This is just going to be a pointless, whiny rant about how it sucks I can't get a guy to save my life and how unfair it is that other girls do and blah de blah de blah. So for that I apologize. I'm just in a bad general mood. But it's like, when you're single and on your own for such a long time, you tend to start to resent couples.
I've accepted the fact that in high school: I probably won't have dates to any of the dances, I probably won't have another boyfriend, and I'll be glad as hell to get out of here. It just flat out sucks ya know? I have this one friend who can literally get any guy she wants. She has guys on their knees wanting to date her because she is physically gorgeous and is such a fun, loud personality. But she literally cheats on every one of them and just doesn't give a shit and it's like how the fuck can you do that? How can she just not feel any guilt or sadness when breaking these guys hearts? But then I forget that their pretty disposable to her, she can replace them. She's so used to guys attention that normally if one of the guys pay attention to me, she flips shit and pouts.
For instance, I attended her birthday party in like seventh grade. She had the hugest crush that week, on an eighth grader named Jacob. She invited him to the party too. So I only knew like three people there and I was chilling with my other best friend who was invited. Well, Jacob turned out to be really cute but I knew he was all Alex's. And yet, he flirted with me so much. We were just hanging out in the pool and he like grabbed me around the waist and was picking me up. Might I mention he attempted to take off my swimsuit top. Anyway, we were joking around with my friend Katie around because he was making me uncomfortable when Alex suggests a little too excitedly, a chicken fight. We didn't object. I got on Katie's and Alex got on Jacob's shoulders and we start the fight. Well, he was a skinny kid like extremely and Alex is about my weight and is curvy. He ended up dropping her first because he couldn't keep her up. She got upset and started crying in the corner. I tried to calm her down but she screamed at me saying I stole him from her and how I was taking up all the attention. I was so confused but like I said, if she doesn't have the guy's or anyone else's attention, she flips.
Long story short, they ended up making out in the hot tub and I ended up stuffing my face with food with my friend Katie. But still it's like she flips out when the guy she wants doesn't pay attention to her. Thus, why I try not to go into social events involving guys with her because naturally she has to be the center of attention. And I am but a humble, meek, shy, insecure girl with no knowledge on how to talk to boys so why should they talk to me anyway?
Ugh, I gotta go do homework before I fail my life.
xx
LoLo
Who wouldn't want to date this?
Monday, December 1, 2014
My Selfies in Art
Jk. My drawing teacher took them. That sounds creepy so let me explain. We're doing portraits of our classmates so he took our pictures and uploaded them to our computers. There. Now I shall share my favorite pictures of me. :D
xx
LoLO
PS> My friend thought these were mugshots. and also, I look kind of an Indian descent even though Im not.
xx
LoLO
PS> My friend thought these were mugshots. and also, I look kind of an Indian descent even though Im not.
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